5.07 a.m. after another hour struggling to fall asleep, I am up again, lights on, computer on... I don't get it! I have maybe 3-4 hours a day of sleeping but still feel good! Well, not always! During the day I just wish I could sleep but in the evening it's just i m p o s s i b l e! GOD!! that's awful! The worse in the fact that I don't sleep at night is that I am not even motivated to do something interesting or useful like studying... No I prefer to look around, wait for the time to go by, hoping to have someone online to whom I could talk. I am desperate!
Not sleeping makes you realize that one day, 24hours can be very long! For example yesterday I woke up at 9 so I have now been 20 hours awake, I have been bored most of this time. I guess that if I could have an activity or do something I like I'd be pleased to be awake such a long time, as I could enjoy doing my stuff but that's not the case.
I'm only 21 years old and I already suffer of insomnia, it's been like that for nearly 8 months now, it's worrying. Doctor just says that I might be stressed out or worried and give me medicine (which doesn't work) but does not give me a solution, I guess I just need a miracle! My body aches, I have constant headaches, my mood is changing faster than usual, my eyes are irritated and I forget things easely. Am I going to end up like that already? pff it's annoying!
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