Should I give up my dream life in order to improve my real one? Well the answer is yes...finally I took a decision. I've been thinking of it for a long time now and I have to be realistic...Living in Spain has always been for me something that I knew I wanted to do but let's be honest, since I'm here I am quite unhappy. Apart from the fact that I feel good being here the reality of having no incomes really worsens my life. Furthermore, I thought that studying here would be cool, that I'd learn loads but no, the degree I'm doing is totally crap, makes no sense and is full of rubbish. I have more free time than I ever had in my entire life. I'm fed up with boredom and hunger, that's all. I'm kind of scared to come back home, I know I want to live abroad but I feel, now, that I might live better there. Hopefully one day, when I'll get stronger I'll go back to my dream. For now, I'm just exhausted, it's been hard on me mentally and physically, I have to think of my well-being and accept the fact that Spain is not made for me at least for now. All of this look a little bit too dramatic but you honestly have to live it the way I did to truly understand what I mean.
But what if I am wrong? What if I fail again? I guess I'll just have to give it a go and see what happens.
