Should I give up my dream life in order to improve my real one? Well the answer is yes...finally I took a decision. I've been thinking of it for a long time now and I have to be realistic...Living in Spain has always been for me something that I knew I wanted to do but let's be honest, since I'm here I am quite unhappy. Apart from the fact that I feel good being here the reality of having no incomes really worsens my life. Furthermore, I thought that studying here would be cool, that I'd learn loads but no, the degree I'm doing is totally crap, makes no sense and is full of rubbish. I have more free time than I ever had in my entire life. I'm fed up with boredom and hunger, that's all. I'm kind of scared to come back home, I know I want to live abroad but I feel, now, that I might live better there. Hopefully one day, when I'll get stronger I'll go back to my dream. For now, I'm just exhausted, it's been hard on me mentally and physically, I have to think of my well-being and accept the fact that Spain is not made for me at least for now. All of this look a little bit too dramatic but you honestly have to live it the way I did to truly understand what I mean.
But what if I am wrong? What if I fail again? I guess I'll just have to give it a go and see what happens.
I'm sorry to hear that you're unhappy. But leaving Spain and giv up is not the same as failure. Maybe it just wansn't the right time and place for you at the present. When i left London I felt the same, like I've made the biggest mistake and was so failed! I was afraid to go home and regret that I left London. But ever since I came back to Sweden I've been so much happier. And now, when I have a distance to my "londonlife", I feel that it wasn't a failure after all. Maybe I had to go there, just to realise how happy I would be here. I don't know exaclty. But i know that I grew stronger and it gave me a lot of experience. So don't think about like a failure, you gave it a chance and you can always try again another time! There is always a way. And always options. And hope! I wish you all the best my friend! <3
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